The Waiting Game

I think one of the hardest things to do is wait. 

A common theme in my life recently has been waiting. Just have patience, God says. I will provide.

It's easier said than done.  Especially for me, who is very impatient. 

I've recently been on the hunt for a full time job. Which, when looking for journalism and public relations in Cincinnati, is nearly impossible. I've applied for multiple jobs, and I still haven't heard back from any. It's also hard when a lot of available jobs require X amount years of professional experience, which, as a graduating college student, I don't have.

It's frustrating. I really need a job by the time I graduate so that I can afford to live with my friend in Norwood in August. I feel strongly that this is something I'm supposed to do - that God wants me to do. Without a job, I won't be able to do this. And I'm impatient - I want a job now. I want that assurance. 

But it's not always that simple. God has his own timeline, which is not the same as mine. I have to adjust my timeline to match His. 

Just wait, I will provide.

It's hard for me to have no control over how something works. I want to get things accomplished as best and efficiently as possible.  It's hard for me to say, God, take control of this situation. I'll wait and trust in you. 

Is this hard for you guys, too?

Trust in the Lord and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him and he will do this:

He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
    your vindication like the noonday sun.

Be still before the Lord
    and wait patiently for him.

   Psalm 37:3-7

Trust and commit your ways to God and He will give you the desires of your heart. How cool is that? The hard part is the waiting that is involved!

The other hard part for me is deciding what exactly I want to do. Although my major is in public relations and english, is that really what I want to do? I dont think so. 

I found myself in college. I've had a lot of ups and downs and a lot of negative experiences, but those experiences shaped me into who I am. And although I had a lot of really bad experiences, I also had some really, really positive experiences. 

My time spent with Navigators has shown me a lot, and I think it has helped me decide that I want to somehow be involved in ministry in my future. Whether that is becoming a worship leader, doing service, working with the Navigators or other campus ministries, I'm not sure. But I know I want to lead by example, like 1 Timothy 4:12 says:

Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, life, love, faith and purity. 

So I guess I have to accept that I simply don't know what the future holds for me. I have to rely that God will provide a job and that I'll be able to move to Norwood. All I have to do it wait. 

Side note - happy 22nd birthday to my roommate, Abby! You're the best, and I hope you enjoyed the red velvet cupcakes!